C'mon Get Happy

I am in such a great mood this morning. I would be in a better mood if I hadn't acted without thinking, as far as spending my bonus money, but I am in a pretty good mood.

My original plan was to apply my entire bonus and our entire tax return to our two Best Buy cards so that I would eliminate those two payments. I paid off the smaller of the two cards, and I paid off the two purchases on the other card whose promotional interest rates were about to expire. Even though none of the purchases were accumulating interest, I thought that it would be good to eliminate those two payments so I could apply them to other debt.

I have a credit union credit card that we use for our day to day purchases because it offers cash back, so I didn't want to apply it to that card because we're likely to run it back up next month and the benefit is short lived.

I have a Discover card that I transferred balances to in December, but I didn't want to put the bonus towards that because it pretty much would have defeated the balance transfers for the 0% interest for 15 months.

Our Target credit card was already paid off, our credit card with our other credit union was already paid off, and we're on a fixed payment for my consolidation loan.

Doh! My consolidation loan, the loan with the highest interest rate (10.49%). I should have put my bonus towards the consolidation loan. While the thought of eliminating two credit card balances was appealing, the majority of the purchases did not start accruing interest until 2013. The minimum payments were very minimum ($25 and $31), and they were accruing $0 in interest. Applying my bonus to the consolidation loan would have decreased the balance, decreasing the interest that is accruing on the loan, and would have put me in the position to pay the loan off at some point this year. The money that is currently going towards the loan could have then been applied to the Best Buy balances, and they still would have been paid off before they began accruing interest.

Lesson learned.

I can't get the money back that I've already paid out, however the balance of my bonus, plus our tax return that we will hopefully receive in March, will instead be applied to the consolidation loan. Paying off just over 30% of the balance of the loan will greatly decrease the interest that is accruing and in December, I will use our savings accounts to pay off the balance of the loan. And just like that, we will get $177.68 a month back in our pockets every month. Or more accurately, we will get $177.68 to apply towards the Discover Card. Depending on how my bonus looks in December, I will either use the remainder of our savings account to pay off the Discover Card, or if my bonus is looking amazing, I will pay off the balance of the Discover Card next February when I receive my bonus.

The money that I am currently putting towards the consolidation loan ($177.68) and the Discover Card ($244) each month, will pay off the balance of the Best Buy card before any of the remaining purchases begin accruing interest next year. By next July, all of our credit cards will be paid off, except one, and our consolidation loan will be gone.

And, I am going to resume contributing to my Roth 401(k) next month when my raise goes into effect. I will not be contributing at the level that I wanted to (6%) because realistically, we can't afford to right now, but I will be contributing at 3%, which is something, and when I pay off the bulk of my debt by this time next year, I will be able to increase my contributions.

None of this takes into account any raise or bonus that my husband will receive in the coming year. He receives monthly bonuses based on production and quarterly bonuses based on job safety, as well as an annual bonus based on a combination of both. It has been hit or miss whether he has gotten raises from year to year, because he works for a small company, so I never count on his paycheck going up.

I think we have decided to forgo the expensive vacation this year, in favor of saving for a Disney trip next year. If we go on vacation, it will be significantly less expensive than previous years, an less expensive than we had planned with the Disney vacation.

So yeah, right now I'm feeling pretty okay with where our finances are headed, as long as I can reign in my husband's spending. I've been making strides not to go to the store unless I need something so that I do not spend impulsively. My next goal is to create grocery shopping lists so that I do not wonder the aisles aimlessly looking for something to cook and end up coming home with a car full of snack foods and no real meals to speak of.

To close, here is the picture of our current debt distribution, after paying all bills for February. As you can see, the overall percentage of debt that is attributable to credit cards has increased, as has the overall credit card total. This is as a result of my husband buying video games, etc on an impulse.

No Counting, Just Trying

I can't keep counting the days that we've been paying off debt when we realistically have not been paying off debt during much of that time. I haven't written lately because I feel like a big, fat failure. We've only added to our debt.

I think last time I wrote, we were getting or had just gotten a consolidation loan to pay off some of our credit cards, or maybe I hadn't even done that yet. Anyway, we consolidated a ton of our debt and promptly went out and ran up those cards all over again. As much as I talk about wanting to pay off debt, I can't stop spending money. And then I blame it on my husband. Looking at our expenditures, it's mostly me. It's my random trips to Kohl's, my daily lunches with coworkers, buying toys for the kids just to buy for them. I like to spend money because I work hard for it and feel like I deserve it.

But, we're no better off now than we were before. We're treading water. We make minimum payments on credit cards and then use those cards to pay for the things that we need and want, so every month our bills are staying at exactly the same level.

We made the decision last week that we were going to use our savings account to pay off credit card debt. Clearly, it's not going to cover all of it because we have so much debt and so little money, but we're paying off our Target credit card, our Kohl's card (which we used to buy a new vacuum when our old one burned up last week), and the bulk of the balance on one of our credit union cards. Basically, it puts us back to where we were when we consolidated our debt in the first place.

We will mostly tread water through the end of the year, trying to save enough money to pay for Christmas and limiting what we purchase this year, and then when we get our bonuses and tax return after the first of the year, we'll pay another large chunk of our debt. Then finally, next summer, we'll use all of the savings we've accumulated to pay off the remainder of our credit card debt. It will leave us with two car loans, my student loans, and our mortgage, but we won't have revolving debt anymore.

This also means I'm taking my lunch four days a week and limiting my lunch excursions to Friday's. We're trying to eat out less as a family too, for our health and our wallets. I got a raise last month, which my husband doesn't know. It only added $40 a paycheck, but that's a tank of gas for my car. I should get another raise after the first of the year.

I never expected this to be so hard. I didn't expect it to be so much work. Hopefully by next summer, I'll be reporting how we're in such a better place than we are right now. I want to save for our retirement, and I'd like to buy a bigger house, but how are we supposed to do that when we can't even discipline ourselves right now?

Day 374: More than a year, and no closer to being paid off

I have read a lot of doom and gloom articles online lately. How can you not, though, given the current economic situation. But more important than the articles themselves are the comments that follow them. They truly paint a picture of the American psychie, or do they?

Last week, I read an article about how the personal savings rate should be 16-20%. Although it did not state whether that was 16-20% of gross or net pay, I don't think it was really relavent. My initial thought was "How on earth is anybody supposed to save 16-20% of their pay??" And then, I looked at my own personal finances. I currently throw $200 a paycheck into my savings account, and another $25 per pay into each of my children's savings accounts. There is very little return on investment right now, but I am not confident enough in our economy to save money any other way. After combining mine and my husband's salaries, I discovered that I am currently saving about 15% of my gross income and about 9% of our combined gross income. That doesn't sound like much, in comparison to the recommended 16% savings rate but, there are weeks that we have extra money after paying bills. I leave $100 in our checking account to spend for the week and throw the rest into a savings account. I do this on two different bank accounts. By the end of the year, I will have saved approximately 11% of our gross income, based on current projections and IF we face no emergencies that require withdrawal from those accounts.

Based on last years tax return and my current withholdings, I estimate we will receive a $2000-$2500 tax return this year. It is considerably less than the $4000 we received last year, but that's because the other half of that money is already being put into savings. This is the first year I have claimed more than zero exemptions, but I kept reading about how I should get that money now and not let the federal government have it for free, so I did what was suggested. Next year, I'll bump it up and hopefully break even.

Once we pay off some of our credit cards, loans, etc, we will have eliminated about $500 in expenditures, half of which can go into savings as well.

In taking steps to consolidate our debt, I applied for a consolidation loan. I didn't originally plan to, I just contacted my credit union to find out the terms of the consolidation loan, but when they gave me a call to discuss the terms of the loan, they pulled up my account and filled out the application. I was approved immediately, and within two hours, had the money deposited into my account for me to distribute as needed. I paid off one credit card, a loan, and the majority of a second credit card. That second credit card will be paid off this month as well.

I went back and forth on the consolidation loan, because there is an early pre-payment fee that if it is paid off in less than 2.5 years, I am charged a $50 fee. I did a quick look at how much I was paying in interest on these cards and loans, and determined that it was well worth it, even with a $50 prepayment fee. We will likely pay a chunk of the loan off with my bonus next year, and continue to make monthly payments before and after that time. If I ever get the raise that I am expecting (hoping for), it will help significantly.

I also decided on the consolidation loan because I have learned that if we have a zero balance on a credit card, we are a lot less likely to use it. Something about putting a balance on a card that was previously paid off just bothers me psychologically, but if there is a balance, I know I'm making a payment on that card anyway, so I am more inclined to use it for random spending. At least with the consolidation loan, I will not be able to amass any more debt on it. There is a fixed amount that I will be paying on for a predetermined amount of time and once it's paid off, it's paid off.

Another fun thing that I learned, that has bolstered my confidence a little, is that we have finally reached a point financially where we're not spending more than we're making. I know it seems a little backwards to be putting money into savings when we were using credit cards to meet basic financial needs, but I felt like (and still do) that if either of us were to lose our jobs, I would rather have money in the bank than a paid off credit card. I can negotiate with a lender, but if I have a $0 balance credit card and no income, it won't be long before access to my card is shut off. So I have been using my lowest interest credit card to pay for basic necessities, like gas and groceries, and then making the same $250 payment every month.

That said, here is a picture of my current debt totals for June.

Day 354: May Totals and Random Updates

I believe when we last left off, I had recently had an interview and was waiting for word as to whether I would get a promotion to a new position, or whether my job audit would net me a promotion in my current role.

I'm sad to say that neither happened. The job I had interviewed for decided that I did not have enough experience, which I guess I can see since everybody else they interviewed was a business analyst and I am just in sales support. It doesn't make it any less disappointing though. HR responded to my job audit by stating that, although I'm doing more work than required for my position, the extra work that I'm doing is not required for my current position and is simply an added benefit that I bring to the job, so they told my manager that my job could not be reclassified.

So I got no more money. However, after three years, my husband finally got a $0.75 an hour raise. I personally feel it should have been more, given that they haven't given raises in three years, but I'm glad he got something. His company has now started offering a retirement plan too, so we will be filling out the paperwork to start contributions to that as well. It will be a hit to our take home pay, but I'll be glad that he's saving something for retirement. I will likely start contributing again after the first of the year, possibly with my merit raise next year.

While it's disappointing that my current department gave me nothing for my efforts, my manager did say that she could give me a merit raise at my midyear review, and another one next spring. I'm anxious to see what kind of increase I get at midyear.

My student loan payment is going to go up $10 a month after my August payment, as part of my graduated repayment plan.

I have noticed that several readers have ended up on my blog for searching the term "What is a grandfathered repayment plan." From what I understand, there was a revision in the student loan terms, both pertaining to interest rates and payment terms for student loans. I believe this was in 2006, but don't hold me to it. At the time, it seemed like a great idea, because it made all student loans fixed rate, instead of variable, and was locked in at the "low" interest rate of 6.some-odd percent. As we all know, when the economy tanked, this "low rate" was no longer a low rate, but I guess that's how things work. From comparing my payments on my current (grandfathered) repayment plan and the new repayment plans, it appears that the new plans have smaller incremental increases on the graduated plan, but the loan is stretched out for a longer period of time. I believe when I signed my loan paperwork, the longest a loan could be repaid on was 20 years. Now it is 25. Similarly, extended repayment plans can last for 25 years, instead of 20.

I think this is kind of a catch 22 for consumers. When I began repayment on my loans about five years ago, I only had 20 years to pay them off. Yes, my payments are going to increase every two years so I will be paying larger payments towards the end of my repayment period, but I only have 15 more years of paying on them. I have been considering consolidating my loans that were not included in the initial consolidation so all of my loans will be locked in at the same rate, however I believe that this resets my payments to another 25 years (unless I make additional payments on the principal) and I end up paying more interest in the long run. Do I consolidate an lock in the 2.something interest rates on my currently variable loans, or do I leave the two separate and pay them off in 15 years?

If I were making any headway on our debt payment plan, I would leave them as is. My student loans would be paid off in less than 10 years, and if my interest rate on the variable loan skyrocketed, it is legitimately small enough that I could pay it off with a tax return or bonus. But I also know that we always have those returns and bonus's spent before they're even deposited. I hate making grown up decisions.

I actually think I'm becoming a little too obsessive about money, bills, debt and the like. I already have a whole payment plan mapped out for our bills for 2012, and we're not even half way through 2011 yet. I mapped out all of the bills we have to pay, based payments on our current salaries (assuming no increase in salary), assuming no decrease in our mortgage (which we should see because of our decreased homeowners insurance premium), and assuming we continue paying the same monthly payments on credit cards, even as the balances and minimum payments decrease.

And you know what? We have a lot of extra money left after paying bills. Now, it doesn't take into account groceries or gas or any other necessities, but I know approximately how much we spend on these items in a given week or month, and they can fluctuate based on what disposable income we have left after paying bills, but I have to say that unless something catastrophic happens (*knock on wood*), 2012 should be a great year for us financially.

We have 22 weeks where we will have more than $150 after paying bills, 7 of which we will have more than $200, 4 of which we'll have more than $300, and 2 of which we'll have more than $400.

I hope that it actually comes to fruition. That is a lot of extra money to pay towards credit cards. On my spreadsheet, I assumed $200 in spending money (for gas, groceries, and miscellaneous spending) and for weeks with more than $200, I will put everything over $200 in our savings account.

Like I said, I'm a little obsessed about it, and a little crazy for devoting so much time for it, but I think seeing it in black and white helps keep me on track for paying things off in a timely fashion. If I can see where the progress is being made, I'm more likely to stick with it.

Ok, so that's enough rambling I guess. Now I will leave you with pictures of our May debt. This does NOT take into account the money we spent on vacation, as it was not accumulated until June.

As you can see, there wasn't much change in the overall composition of the debt, or the amount of debt paid off.

Day 311: April Debt Totals and Just Waiting

I'm at a loss. I don't know how to decrease our debt level when we're having a hard time meeting our monthly obligations. We pay down credit cards, or pay them off by the end of the month, but then the next month we don't have enough money to pay for gas, or food, and it has to go on our credit cards. One of the credit cards I paid off last month with our tax return now has an almost $800 balance. I was going to pay it off before the payment due date, but then realized that I did not account for our water bill in my budget this month, so there goes that plan. As gas prices continue to increase, our ability to pay off our debt is going to be dramatically impacted. They are predicting that $4.00 a gallon gas will come to our town this weekend based on the $111 a barrel oil. It's very disheartening that the harder we try to get ahead, the more it seems like something is trying to keep us down. We've already seen our grocery bill nearly double in the past year, and that's buying the same items we were buying before.

On a more positive note, I switched insurance companies. I have been with State Farm since I first started driving 15 years ago. I've always had auto insurance with them, and then renters insurance when I had my own place, and more recently, homeowners insurance. They've usually been pretty good to us, so I never had a reason to shop elsewhere. Well, last January we had to file a claim because the county flooded our basement. Six months prior to that, we had filed a claim on a busted ac/furnace unit, thinking the whole thing would have to be replaced to the tune of $5000. They repaired it, instead of replacing it, so our claim was for a measly $800, so it wasn't even worth it. Anyway, last year, on renewal, State Farm raised our homeowners premium nearly $100 because of our claims history. Two months ago, we received notice that they were increasing our deductible from $500 to 1% of our replacement value, which was nearly triple the deductible we already had on record. I called our agents office, furious, asking how much the deductible was going to be and advising that we would be shopping our insurance elsewhere. They told me they would see if they could decrease our deductible to $1000 and that the reduced coverage would mean lower premium. Wrong. When we received our renewal invoice, our premium went up nearly 25%. So, I started shopping my insurance.

In the interest of full disclosure, I work for Nationwide insurance. I have worked here for nearly 5.5 years, but never switched from State Farm because I liked the way I had been treated by them and the last time I was quoted with Nationwide, they were nearly double State Farms rates. Upon receiving our renewal notice, I called Nationwide. The result? Our homeowners premium is down $105 over 2010 premium (down nearly $250 from what we would have been paying with State Farm). Our auto insurance? Down about $20 a month, so almost $250 for the year. By switching to Nationwide, we saved almost $500 in premium this year. I guess the commercials don't lie.

They will reassess our mortgage payments in July. Hopefully by then, the County Auditor will have reassessed our property value for tax purposes as well, and we should definitely see a decrease in property taxes due to the reduced value of our home. I sent in the paperwork this year to have them reassess, after seeing a more than 30% decrease in property value. The house next door to ours is currently on the market for $35,000 (foreclosure) and has been for several months with no sale. I've finally just stopped looking at house values in our neighborhood because it's too depressing. I'm pretty convinced we're never going to be able to move.

We did decide to take a vacation this year. I booked the room a few weeks ago and got it for 15% off the lowest advertised price, plus they waived the resort fee and parking fees. After dividing the cost with my sister and mom, who are going along and sharing the condo with us, it worked out to less than $1000 for the week for the hotel room. We should have the entire cost of the room paid off before we leave for vacation. We're trying to have a garage sale before we go, but it got rained out last time.

I interviewed earlier this week for a higher paying job. Upon learning that I was interviewing, my supervisor at my current job approached me and told me that she knew I was doing more than required by my job description, so she wanted to perform a job audit to try and get me a promotion and a raise. I should know if I get a second interview by the end of the week (or possibly Monday), and I don't know how long it's going to take to hear back on the job audit, so right now I'm on pins and needles waiting to see if I will get another raise, this time in the way of a promotion.

Anyway, I promised our current debt totals, so here they are. As you can see, we did increase in credit card debt. Our credit cards now compose 9% of our overall debt load, as opposed to 8% in both February and March. I'm hoping that interest rates stay low until they determine the new student loan interest rates next month (I think it's next month), that way I can reconsolidate and reduce my payments further.

Day 258: Yay for Tax Returns

I didn't realize it's been nearly two months since I've updated, but that just means that todays update is even better than usual.

We got our tax return on Friday. We also got my bonus on Thursday. Our state return will be here on Tuesday, and my second bonus will be here in two weeks. My husband's employer has started paying monthly performance based bonuses, which means an average of an extra $100 a month, and I will find out on Tuesday what my raise will be for this year. It is a very happy time in our household, even though we have nothing fun or exciting planned for this money. Well, I guess it depends on your definition of fun and exciting.

Friday, I dropped our entire tax return and my bonus onto my credit card with our Credit Union. It cut the balance in half. Why would I do this, you may ask, when our Target card has more than double the interest rate. Well, my credit union is currently offering 2% cash back on balance transfers. Now that I've paid down half of the balance on that card, my credit union will be initiating a balance transfer on the two credit cards that we will be paying off. In addition to paying off two credit cards, I will be getting $100 cash back, deposited into a high interest (10% +) savings account.

In addition to eliminating a quarter of our credit card debt, my husband and I finally sat down and had a conversation about our financial goals. This is the first time I feel like we are working together, instead of against each other.

I decided to create a pie chart of our current debt so that we have a visual representation of the distribution of our debt. I based it off of the chart I've been using since last June to keep track of our debt amount.

I think it might be good for both my husband and I to be able to visually see our debt decrease. When we start accumulating savings, I'll add that too, so we can see our debt decrease and our savings increase.

I actually feel good about where we're headed, and I feel positive about the future.

Day 213: Optimistic

I’m beginning to feel genuinely positive about our finances for the first time in a long time. It’s too soon to be throwing a party or declaring victory, but I am finally seeing the potential for improvement over the next six months. The first step I’ll be making is paying $600 towards my Best Buy card this week. That will pay off one of our purchases that was no interest for 18 months before any interest accrues. In February, I will be receiving my bonus, which after taxes will give me about $1100 to go towards credit cards. I will probably put the entire thing towards our Target card, since it has the 24% interest rate.


Our tax return will likely be delayed, because of the changes to the tax laws at the end of last year, since we may itemize. As long as the Best Buy purchase is paid off though, I don’t mind waiting a few extra weeks to get my refund. Our refund will pay off the remainder of the Target card, and will also pay off the balance of my Best Buy card. I also sold my broken down old car for $300, so that will be put towards debt too.

By April, we should have two credit cards completely paid off.

Now, in the meantime, I am building savings. I am putting the difference between last year’s insurance premiums and this year’s insurance premium into a separate savings account. I also increased my exemptions for tax purposes and am putting that difference into savings for the next year. I am also putting money into our regular savings account by over-contributing towards our mortgage payment. By the end of December, we will have about $8500 in savings. I’m going to use that to pay off our remaining Best Buy card and our CU 1 card. That will leave us with one credit card balance going into 2012. That makes me really, really excited. And seeing step by step how we’re paying off these balances makes me very confident that we can follow through with it.

Also, I will likely consolidate all of my student loans in June this year. I anticipate that loan rates will increase this year and I would like to have all three student loans into one single payment. My other option is to not consolidate them, but to instead wait until spring of 2012 and pay the two smaller loans off with savings and our tax return. I have six months to think that over, and see what the interest rate will be for next year.

So long as everything goes according to plan, by this time next year, we will have paid off over $26,000 in debt. And, we will still have money in savings. That, my dear readers, makes me very, very happy. And more than that, it makes me very motivated and determined.

Day 170: No Good

I didn’t want to post this entry this month. I kind of want to beat myself after looking at it, honestly. Here is our debt for this month, including the money we’ve spent on Christmas so far.

So what can we discern from this image?

I am lousy at paying off debt. We have added over $17,000 in debt since June. We have added over $3000 in credit card debt since June. We have added over $2500 of that credit card debt in just the past month. From last month to this month, we have added nearly $2000 in overall debt.

Taking stock in our current financial picture, I think it suffices to say that I am not meant to be a debt counselor. Our balance transfer from our Target card did us no good. Not only did it max out our credit union card, but the Target card is now nearly maxed out again.

We are foolish. We are never going to get out of this debt trap. I’m ready to return my washer and dryer. My husband is using that purchase as an excuse to go out and buy himself an expensive Christmas gift, even though the conversation we had when we bought the washer and dryer was “If we buy this, then we’ll just buy small gifts for each other.” I should have known that he’d want everything to be “fair and equal.”

This is why I don’t let my husband know the state of our financial affairs if we get extra money. He will never know how much of a bonus I bring in. He won’t know how big our tax return is. He won’t know anything about money I’m putting into savings. Is it horrible that I’m thinking about withdrawing our kid’s savings accounts to pay off our debt? I feel like, if I do that and I’m not paying interest on credit card debt, that we can replenish their savings accounts quickly.

Does it make me a bad mom for withdrawing their savings when they’ve earned less than a dollar of interest YTD on either account? I just kind of think that’s the only way we’re going to get rid of our debt. But what if that doesn’t work either? I feel like we’re drowning.

On a slightly less desperate note, I joined Swagbucks three weeks ago and have since earned enough swag bucks for three $5 Amazon gift cards. If you're interested in doing things to earn Swagbucks (which can ultimately be cashed in for real gifts), please click the button to the right to sign up using me as a referral. I also cashed out all of my survey winnings last week so I can put that towards paying off Christmas. It was only about $60, but $60 is better than nothing, right?

Day 149: Annual Enrollment

I completed my Annual Enrollment last week. I went back and forth many times, worrying about what it was going to do to our bottom line if I took the steps I wanted to take. Ultimately, I knew I had to make a decision and I decided that it was better to save money on the premium and go with the High Deductible plan. I contributed $900 annually to our HSA, which will be matched 100% by my employer. That only works out to $75 per month. When I plugged it into our monthly spreadsheet for next year, it did take us negative for a few weeks, but I have a few months until I have to worry about that.

I don’t know if I’ve shared or not, but because I’m so obsessed with improving our financial lot, I’ve created a spreadsheet. It originally started with just listing monthly bills and their due dates, that way I could check off items that I paid and I’d know what was still outstanding. As we’ve gotten further into debt and been teetering closer to the edge, I added columns with each weeks pay date. I now break down exactly what is coming out of each paycheck based on what we need to pay our bills. I added a conditional format to let me know when our balance for the week is below $0. In 2011, we have 14 weeks that are below $0, and two months that are cumulatively below $0, however, we have several months at the beginning of the year that leave us with $300-$500 extra after paying bills, which means probably $50-$150 after paying for gas and groceries, so hopefully it won’t be too much of a hit.

While completing my annual enrollment, I established a separate savings account. Since I am only contributing $75 a month towards our HSA, I have decided to have a separate savings/checking account for the additional premium, to balance everything out. I will be contributing every two weeks to this savings account. It is tied to a checking account because if we have to pay medical bills, I want easy access to this money. But, if we don’t have medical bills or a financial emergency, the debit card for this account is going to stay locked in our fireproof lock box. Assuming we have no medical emergencies, we would accumulate $2600 in this savings account, $900 of my own contributions to our HSA, and $1160 in company funds in our HSA by the end of next year. That’s $4660 that can go towards medical bills if we ever needed to pay our deductible.

I know putting the $2660 in the savings account is not the best financial decision since it is not tax free, however, since we do not have an emergency fund and the $200+ monthly hit would have been too great for us, I think this is a great option for this year. This money can serve as both our medical savings, and our emergency fund, should we have an emergency that demanded this money. If I contributed it all to an HSA, we’d only be able to use it for medical expenses.

My other plan is that I’m going to increase my exemptions to 3 and change my status to married, and contribute the difference to a secondary savings account. My credit union allows you to create multiple savings accounts for multiple purposes. My plan is to divert the money that we were previously paying in excess towards our federal taxes into this savings account. Every $500, I will put into a CD, staggering the maturity dates. This will allow me to earn interest on money I was previously loaning to the government interest free. If I owe taxes at year end, I will have that money sitting in a savings account/CD and it won’t hurt our financial position to pay it. If our taxes stay at the same level, we would still see a tax return, it would just be a lot smaller, and we’d have earned interest on the difference throughout the year.

I’m not going to lie, these changes make me very, very nervous. I’m used to knowing that I have a small deductible and that most everything is covered by my insurance. I’m used to knowing that I’m going to receive a large tax return at the end of the year. The thought of not receiving that lump sum of money makes me very nervous. But we have to stop living like we are, and having money in savings, even if it is an emergency fund, will reduce a lot of the stress in our marriage.

I really just want us to be happy again. And I want to be in a place that I can teach my kids to be responsible with their money so they don’t go through the same mess when they get older. Like I’ve said before, my parents didn’t really teach me anything about money, at least not anything good. I want to change that with my kids.

Day 143: Financial Anxiety

It’s Annual Enrollment time again, and this year I find myself experiencing high anxiety at the thought of making decisions that will impact us for an entire year.


Our company offers a Health Savings Choice Plan, in addition to the traditional PPO plan that we have had for the entire five years that I have worked here. The health savings plan includes a $35 biweekly premium, $2700 deductible, and $900 company matching, dollar for dollar into an HSA. The PPO has a $154 biweekly premium, $1000 deductible, and no company matching or HSA. Looking at what we have paid over the past several years, I don’t believe that we would ever even touch that $2700 deductible.

With preventative care 100% covered with no copay or deductible, the HSCP sounds like a great option. But what happens if we’re hit with a catastrophic medical issue? What if we don’t have a $2700 deductible if one of us has to be admitted to the hospital? What if I start contributing to an HSA in January, only to have one of our children break an arm in February? Or worse? There’s also the fact that HSA contributions only come out of the second pay of the month, so even if I wanted to put the difference between premium ($119/paycheck or $257.83 per month), we would be taking a HUGE hit every second paycheck. Do we have the self control to budget the extra $119 so that the money lasts us all month? My other thought was contributing $119 per month to the HSA and then $119 to a savings account on the first pay of the month. We’re still saving the same amount for health expenses, but the first $119 would be in a savings account that could act as both an emergency fund AND a health savings account. It wouldn’t have the same tax benefits as an HSA, but we would still be saving the money, gaining (minimal) interest, and we’d have it available if we had a catastrophic emergency.

Since I’m in the “planning for next year” mindset, I’m also considering increasing my exemptions, claiming married status, and putting the difference into a savings account. Based on this years tax rates, I would have saved $2568.80 in a savings account, accruing interest. That’s still less than our projected $3700 tax return, so we still wouldn’t have had to pay at the end of the year, but we would have been earning interest on that money (although again, it’s minimal). Although I know it makes good financial sense, I’m still suffering some severe anxiety at the thought of not receiving a massive tax return in 2012; although, if the Bush tax cuts expire, I won’t be receiving a massive tax return in 2012 anyway.

I know I can change the tax exemptions later in the year if it isn’t working out for us, if I find that we’re not saving like we’re supposed to be, but the annual enrollment terrifies me. If I decide that I don’t want to pay a $2700 deductible, I’m out of luck until 2012.

My husband told me he trusts me to make the right financial decisions, but it’s moments like right now that I’m not sure what the right financial decisions are.

Day 129: Rambling about the Past and the Future

I read this article on Yahoo yesterday, regarding 401(k) matching. As I wrote about a month or so ago, I discontinued my 401(k) contributions temporarily because we needed the additional income to help pay our bills and I was facing a consistent negative rate of return on my investment.

Reading the comments on this article (which is no small feat, given the numerous server errors that plague Yahoo articles), made me really think about my investment philosophy and planning for our future retirement.

I don’t know if I’ve spilled any personal information about myself, but I am 29 years old and my husband is in his mid-30s. I make approximately $42,000 a year plus bonuses (which have ranged anywhere from $500 up to an anticipated bonus this year of closer to $1500). My husband is on an hourly wage and generally has a gross income between $21,000-$25,000 and has not seen a raise in three years. Given our yearly salaries, I find it very sad that we have no savings accounts to speak of.

I put $25 per paycheck into each of our children’s savings accounts and then transfer those funds into small, short term CD’s whenever the savings account balances reach $500. I keep the CD’s small, and occasionally have multiple CD’s with different maturity dates, usually only buying 3 month CD’s due to the low savings rate. If the savings rate ever increases (which I anticipate it will in the future), I may buy more long term CD’s. My children know these bank accounts exist, even if they don’t fully understand them. In addition to my automatic contributions every two weeks, we also put any change and cash they receive into their piggy banks, and when the piggy banks get full, we take the piggy’s to the bank, dump the change into the change machine, and deposit that money into their savings accounts as well. When they get older, I will teach them how money is used to buy things, and we will maybe put half of their change into savings, and the rest of it will be used to buy things they want. I will also give them an allowance for doing chores around the house; something I never received growing up.

I think a lot of my financial immaturity can be traced back to my parents and how I was raised. I don’t want to blame my parents, because they did the best they could, given their financial position. They were both teenagers when I was born and my mom dropped out of school at 16. My dad graduated, but always worked hard, manual labor jobs just to make ends meet. They had five kids, and then divorced, and spent the next 14 years arguing over money, child support, medical bills, and everything else. I remember my dad, over and over again, telling me and my siblings how my mom was being unreasonable, expecting him to pay half of the medical and dental bills when he already paid child support, even though that was what the court order stated. I remember him showing me his paychecks and telling me, “This is how much I bring home, and this is how much I pay your mom, and how much does that leave me with? Do you think that it’s fair that I should have to pay her more for doctors and dentist bills?” Similarly, I remember copying every check that my dad sent my mom for child support so she would have proof for the courts that he wasn’t paying his fair share, and knowing how much she was bringing in, and how much the mortgage was, and really having no clue on utilities or car payments. Based on what I know now, as an adult, it’s no wonder our home was foreclosed on when I was 17 years old.

When we bought our house, we made an effort to determine how much home we could afford. I never wanted my children to feel the sense of loss that I did when we lost our home. It was as if I went off to college, and never had a home to go back to. Apartments never felt like home, and I moved every year so I didn’t really accumulate much from year to year. My first apartment was furnished, but my second was not, and the only furniture I owned was a queen sized bed and a 19” tv. I sat the tv on a box and didn’t have cable. My living room was empty. Same with my second apartment, until my (now) husband bought me a tv stand to set my tv on for my birthday. It wasn’t until I moved in with my husband that I actually had furniture in my living room, and even then we had a broken down couch that he’d gotten from friends, or family, or somewhere, and a dresser that had broken handles. We got a free washer and dryer when we signed a 15 month lease with the apartment complex, which worked great for us at the time. We got an old desk from a friend that was moving and furniture from friends and family when they replaced theirs.

So as we were saving to buy a house, we calculated how much we were spending on rent, and we put whatever we could into savings every month. We kept track of what we were able to save, what we were spending on extraneous items, and where we could save more. When we met with a mortgage broker, we told him we could afford no more than $950 a month for our mortgage, interest, and insurance; knowing that we could afford closer to $1000, but not wanting to push our budget. He told us that with the amount we were looking to spend, we could only afford a $100,000 house, but that with our income, we qualified for $160,000 home. We disagreed, telling him that $1000 would be pushing our budget and he told us that we would see raises and be able to afford more in the future. I am glad we didn’t listen to him.

We looked at homes between $99,000 and $113,000, and ultimately bought the most expensive one that we looked at, but it had four bedrooms and one and a half baths, and did not need near the work that the others we saw needed. It was, for all intents and purposes, move in ready.

When we bought our home is when finances started going downhill for us. We bought a new couch, new bed, new tv, new tv stands. It was almost as if when we were told we could afford more house, we thought we could afford more stuff to go in it. Of course, we had no more cash, and since our mortgage payment was at the top of our limit, everything went on credit. At a time when many people were losing their job and defaulting on debt payments, we were a great asset to companies looking to make a profit, like banks. We bought and bought and made the minimum payments and finally, at Christmas last year, hit a point where we were questioning how we were going to buy gifts for everybody that we were supposed to buy for. We had been buying with the assumption that our tax return would bail us out, that bonuses would hold us over, that all of the spending that we did throughout the year would be wiped out with the influx of cash in the spring.

The problem was that with the credit card reform that went into effect earlier this year, some of our creditors, especially the ones with the biggest balances, decided to change their fixed rate cards into variable rates, and increased the interest rates to the point that 90%+ of our minimum payment was going towards interest. This led to higher minimum payments to cover the interest plus a minimum payment towards the balance, and without the tax return, we didn’t have the money to pay the balances down.

Then we were hit by problem after problem financially. Our air conditioner broke, twice. Our basement flooded with sewage. Our air conditioner broke again. The bottom of our car was rusted out and it would have cost more to repair than it was worth to keep it.

Through it all, though, we’ve managed to keep our heads above water. Our 2010 tax return went towards paying off the credit cards we used to fix our basement. Our 2011 tax return will go towards the other problems we’ve had crop up throughout the year.

Once we’ve made a sizable dent in our debt, I will start putting a percentage of our pay into savings for a rainy day fund, instead of throwing so much money towards the debt, that way we will have a cushion. We’re less stressed with an emergency fund.

And after we’ve made payments towards these credit cards and I feel that we have sufficiently gotten our heads above water, I will resume contributions to my company 401(k). My company matches 50 cents on the dollar up to 6% of my salary. I contribute to a Roth 401(k) because I’d like to think that I will be making more money when I retire than I do now, pushing me into a higher tax bracket. Even if I’m not making anymore, I will still probably be in a higher tax bracket due to inflation. After contributing to the maximum that my employer will match, I plan to contribute to a Roth IRA, eventually up to the maximum that I am allowed. I would eventually like to put some amount into the market for long term investing, not to play the market. I want to learn more about buying stock and diversifying my investments. My company also offers a pension, in addition to the 401(k), which I am well aware makes me very fortunate.

Anyway, this discussion about planning for retirement has gotten very long winded and off track, but I guess I just needed a brain dump today. To sum it up, I want to diversify. I know that 401(k)’s aren’t guaranteed, so I’d like to also contribute to a Roth IRA and savings and CD’s, but I’d also like to try some long term investing in the stock market, and hopefully by time we retire, we’ll have paid off our mortgage and won’t be carrying debt, and we’ll be able to live comfortably without worrying where our next meal is coming from.